So… my birthday is coming up in mid-May. This is a milestone year for me—the big three-oh.
I’m actually not as freaked out about it as I thought I would be. But because it is such a “big” birthday, I’ve been thinking about my bucket list and the things I’ve done in the last decade. Here are a few of the items
I’ve crossed off my list:
*Have two beautiful, wonderful kids
*Earned a bachelor’s degree
*Had two books published
*Bought a house (well, me and the bank…)
*Own and trained a therapy dog
*Traveled and seen some cool places: Grand Canyon, Niagara Falls, New York City
Thinking about where I’ve been is well and good, but it has also made me think about where I’m going. And I’ve come to realize that my goals and dreams for the next decade are a lot more nebulous. Write more books. Be a good mom and enjoy my kids. I haven’t really decided much more than that—and I need to. I fully believe that having written, concrete goals and dreams is necessary to achieve those things. And I’ve got a few more weeks to think about things, so now I’ve got to get to it!
Having a bucket list is something I have in common with the hero from my new book, THE HOMESTEADER’S SWEETHEART. I thought I would share an excerpt where the hero realizes that he’s achieved part of his biggest dream (having a family) but he’s missing an important piece—the WIFE. In this scene, Jonas starts thinking about why he has let that dream pass him by (so far).
Here’s the scene:
Jonas wiped his hands on the damp towel and set it aside, finished with the dishes. He leaned one hand on the wall above the washing tub, looking out the window without really seeing. Too much rain still falling to see much, anyway.
When he'd built the cabin, he'd arranged the kitchen so there would be a window his future wife could look out of and enjoy the view of the mountains in the far distance. At that time, with only Breanna, Oscar and Seb to look after, he'd had dreams of finding a wife. He'd had dreams of having someone to love him since his childhood. It wasn't until his bricklaying apprenticeship in Philadelphia that those dreams had coalesced into a vision of a wife, a partner, a friend closer than any other.
Oh, he knew the kids loved him, but it wasn't the same as having someone who didn't depend on you for their well-being—someone who chose you.
What had happened to those desires? Had Jonas become too busy with the daily hubbub of life and those dreams had faded into the background?
If he wanted a wife, he could find a wife!
With eight children to watch after, he didn't have a lot of time to think about courting. In fact, he had none during the busy months of summer. But if it was important enough, he could make time for it.
Or was it a deeper issue than time? Was he scared that if he got close to someone, they would find him lacking, just like his own parents had? What if he fell in love, completely and deeply in love, and the woman left him like his parents had?
And why had Penny's presence resurrected his dreams of finding a true partner? Could it simply be because she'd been there during his tumultuous eighteenth year, when he'd first dreamed of having a wife? Or was there something special within her that attracted him? Like the fact that she treated Breanna as if she was completely normal?
He didn't know. This confusion and insecurity didn't sit well with him. He liked things ordered. Liked his quiet, homesteader's life.
And yet, he couldn't be disappointed that Penny had come into his life, even if the disruption was temporary.
Here’s the backcover blurb for THE HOMESTEADER’S SWEETHEART:
To escape a dreaded arranged marriage, Penny Castlerock will face anything--even life on her grandfather's farm. But it isn't the rustic lifestyle that's got the Philadelphia socialite tied in knots. It's the handsome homesteader and his eight adopted children next door....
With seven boys and a girl to raise, transplanted farmer Jonas White could sure use some help. He just didn't expect it to come from the high-spirited, copper-haired beauty he's always admired from afar. But surely working the land is no life for a woman like Penny. Yet a threat to Jonas's farm just might show him how perfect Penny is for him after all.
In honor of my birthday, I’m going to be giving away some cool gifts and I’ve twisted some other author’s arms to give away some too. Visit www.megamaybirthdaybash.com for full details.
Thanks for letting me be a guest today. I’ll be giving away one hard copy and one electronic (PDF) copy of the book from those who comment. Here’s my question for you: what’s one cool thing you’ve crossed off your bucket list, or one thing you hope to cross off it in 2012?